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I did have another post that I was planning to write today.

It’s titled “The ONE Thing That Controls Every Decision You Make” and it was going to detail our natural human quest for status.

However, it’s now 10pm and I’ve written nothing more than the title.

After being stuck in my own head for most of the day, I’ve decided to write a new post about something else.

I’m not sure what the topic is and I still haven’t given this post a title. For the time being, I’m just moving my fingers and typing whatever words and sentences flow out of my head.

Let’s see what happens.

(NOTE: Those that go beyond this point do so at their own risk.)

My walls are getting higher

It doesn’t take long for any new person who meets me to realize that I have some rather large metaphorical walls.

No matter how many times I get told to bring my walls down and let people in, I refuse to.

It took a long time for me to build those walls and I love them! I have created my own space where I can feel safe and do whatever I please.

“Not everyone is going to hurt you,” I hear you say.

Well, I’m sure that not everyone who goes into your house is going to steal from you, but you still lock the doors and windows!

Same principle.

I do have a door to my imaginary fortress for those that care to use it. You may enter the courtyard and castle, but you’re not getting into the tower.

Okay, before this gets any more metaphorical, where am I going with this?

Well, I’ve been very successful at protecting myself from the real world, but on the internet, I’ve done anything but.

In the digital landscape, it’s been a bit of a free-for-all; I don’t even have a flimsy garden fence let alone a wall!

But that’s about to change!

My fortress is about to get a whole new shiny extension.

[Random thought: I am writing a public post about making my life more private!?!]

I’m not an introvert…or am I?

I should clear something up and emphasize that I’m not an introvert, or at least, I don’t think I am.

I can hold my own at networking events, I can strike up conversations with strangers at a bus stop, I can confidently introduce myself to a room full of people, etc.

I am not shy or afraid of conversing with people. I just prefer not to.

I enjoy (and to some extent, prefer) my own solitude.

Let’s talk money…

Here’s something strange which I am just getting to grips with.

The more money you make, the less you want to talk about it.

As an entrepreneur, I thought that I would be proud to talk about the increase in my wealth. After all, it’s proof of my success.

But I don’t want to.

I have been avoiding all conversations about money, and when it has came up in conversation, I’ve felt uncomfortable talking about it as though it’s a bad thing.

The topic of money has never bothered me before.

So, as an entrepreneur on the internet, where does that leave me? Because apparently, to be an entrepreneur on the internet I need to take bikini pics of myself relaxing on a tropic beach, driving around in a very impractical supercar, and sleeping on a bed of scattered money.

[We interrupt this post with an unscheduled break because I’m going for a late-night drive. Does anyone else do this when they have a lot on their mind?]

Opinions are only good if everyone else agrees

When I was at school, I was always asked what I thought of things. I think the school was trying to cultivate an environment where we could develop and express our own opinions.

Fast forward a couple of decades and I’m now learning that you should exercise extreme caution when sharing your opinion, because unless your opinion is congruent with that of the masses, then you are wrong.

Your opinion is based on your worldview which is created by your life experiences to date. I have talked about this in previous posts, so I’ll not go into detail about it here, but basically, this means that in order to have the same opinion as the masses, you need to have lived a similar life of experiences as the masses.

…and who wants to do that?!

One of my favorite quotes is, “If we are all thinking the same, then no one is thinking.”

…another is, “Be careful when following the masses, sometimes the ‘m’ is silent.”

Let’s wrap this up and get to bed!

It’s now gone midnight and it’s well past my bedtime.

There’s absolutely no point to this post, and I’m not even sure if it makes sense since it flits from one thought to another, but it does feel good to allow my thoughts to flow out of me like some form of written diarrhoea.

Things are changing and I think I’m going through a period of growth which will allow me to reach the next level on my entrepreneurial journey; a level that I’ve never been able to reach before.

Fingers cross I don’t mess it up! (…as I have done four times before!)

Roseanna x

P.S. Or maybe it’s not growth, maybe I’m just a bit weird/crazy/insane [insert adjective of choice here].

P.P.S. I promise that my next post will deliver more value and not be a rambling mess.

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Currently winging my way through life and putting most of it on the internet. This is my personal website where I share my business book reviews, my adventure tips and stories, and my general musings on life as a solo entrepreneur.

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